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i don't know what i feel,,
i'm just....
what is name for this feelin'

~empty~

not sad, but neither glad
sick of this feelin'

jenuh, penuh, letih
rasa-rasanya tanpa emosi,
hanya menatap dan terdiam,
tanpa rasa.....
saat dosa terasa memenuhi diri
saat asa terasa tak mungkin tergapai
hati ini rasa-rasanya menghitam

ya Allah, pardon all my sins
all i did wrong, fix me...
please, i need You more...

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"Manusia tidak jemu memohon kebaikan, dan jika mereka ditimpa malapetaka dia menjadi putus asa lagi putus harapan" [ TQs Fushshilat :49 ]

...benarlah apa sabdaMu ya Allah.....
*****
for my moms,
i'm so sorry, not yet to be a good son
but ,i am really proud of being your son, Ma.
May Allah take same care of you as you did to us. May Allah save you from every trouble.

[8 Agustus 2010 - 27 Sya'ban 1430H]